SHE (feels like she's disappearing inside her life).

SHE

She feels like she’s disappearing
inside her own life.
She apologizes for everything:
for laughing too loudly,

for talking too much,
for complaining about her constant pain.

Just taking up space feels wrong.

She’s learned that no one cares anymore.
Her parents and siblings are gone;
there's no one left to tell.
More importantly, there's no one left to care.

She's too old to start over.
Too sick, too infirm to manage getting around.

No car, no money, no life;
she's become someone she's never been before.

She's not sure how it will end.

That's not true, she understands the end is death. 

She just doesn't know what will happen 

between now and then.

And that worries her, a lot.

She feels like she’s disappearing
inside her own life.
She apologizes for everything -
for laughing too loudly,
for talking too much,
for complaining about her constant pain.

Just taking up space feels wrong.

She’s learned that no one cares anymore.
Her parents and siblings are gone;
there's no one left to tell.
At least, there's no one left to care.

She's too old to start over.
Too sick, too infirm
to manage getting around.

No car, no money, no life;

she's someone 

she's never been before.

she's not sure how it will end.

She feels like she's 

disappearing inside her life.

She apologizes for everything,

She's sorry for laughing too loudly,

for talking too much, for complaining

about her constant pain.

Just taking up space is wrong.

She's learned that no one cares anymore,

her parents and siblings are gone,

there's no one left to tell.

At least, there's no one left to care.

She's too old to start over, too sick, 

too infirm to manage getting around.