234. REFLECTIONS ON MY BIRTHDAY
234. REFLECTIONS ON MY BIRTHDAY I forgot the pot of mums they gave me so Billy dropped it off along with an old Cool Whip container crammed with leftover party goodies: tiny cream puffs and three different kinds of cheesecake wrapped in ruffled papers so they won't stick together. From my chair on the porch I watch thin rain drizzle down, a cube of raspberry cheesecake and mug of tea on the ledge next to me. I reflect on the day and my party, remember other birthdays. Then I think about next year, a major milestone. I refuse to be thought of as used up or irrelevant. I want to age with grace, to own my wisdom and embrace new challenges. I'm more aware of my mortality now, there's a sense of urgency to do all the things I want to accomplish. Age doesn't make someone less interesting. Wrinkles matter. They're the patina of a long life. I don't know what comes next. I just know this isn't an ending. I'm still here, I'm s...